Just Another Sunday

Well.. I find myself writing more every week. I am not sure if this is good or bad. I used to love to be home on a Sunday. Sunday's were always a time for family and relaxing, preparing a good meal for my child or friends that came over, going for a drive in the country and then maybe a DQ treat to end the day. Erika and I always enjoy "chasing the perfect sunset"! Sunday's were the best!!

Now.. for the last couple of weeks, I find myself NEEDING to get out of town and getting away from  everything and some times everybody!!  I am so worried that we will never get these times back. Life as we have known it is gone. I see and hear the frustration in peoples post on Face Book and  even in public places.  I feel myself getting more frustrated every day, I have gone from being upset, crying to being seriously pissed off!! A complete roller coaster of emotions. So.. I leave town, sometimes I can put it out of my head and think about where I am going and what I am seeing .. but then it all comes back. 

I went on a road trip with a friend yesterday.. talking to her  was a huge help.. we discussed everything under the sun.. from men, to our houses (both flooded).. we discussed our children and then men again.. (smiling) and agreed that men are more complicated than the flood!! (Okay just joking)!!
I can see the fear in her eyes, and I am sure that she could see fear in mine.  The not knowing what we will see and what we will eventually have to face the first time we see our homes, is eating at both of us! The uncertainty.. has caused us both more stress than we would like to admit!!   The stress is simply etched into every ones face!! We all can look at one another and pretty much know.. "yep, you're displaced as well".. and agree that it completely sucks!!

For all the residents affected in Minot, talk about how you feel, or simply write a blog. I can honestly say, that this has helped me. Though, I am not a person to keep much in, talking to friends and family,has definitely helped. There are a handful of friends that have been there for me during this entire time. Calling me at 2 am when they see me on Face Book, or sending me a text at 7 am to let me know they are thinking of me!!  You have no idea how much this has meant to me!

I used to take my house for granted..  yep.. it was my private space and at the end of the day, I always had a place to go and could shut myself away from the rest of the world!! Now.. I just want a home.. to call my own again, to be able to go to and be alone or even share with someone!!  Not sure that this will happen any time soon. Please don't get me wrong, I have a place to go to, my daughter and son in law have been amazing during this entire ordeal. I will never be able to express to them how much I appreciate this.

Like the little girl said in the video that I posted to FB, "I want to go home", from my sweet friend Sharon that has lost so much, She said to me the other day, "I want my pillow and my blanket and my bed". This broke my heart, this woman is not a whiner she is the strongest person I know. But this flood has brought all of us to our knees and we're all suffering!!

One point I want to make is this,  a friend just called me and said that he heard that two men were arrested when they tried to drive through some water to see about their homes. I understand the laws, the rules.. and that this is a potential dangerous situation if there are live wires in the water. I know that this is for the  protection of the residents of Minot. HOWEVER.. with that being said.. I also know that folks are getting desperate to see their property.. I know I have personally wanted to hire a boat and have someone take me to my house and then worry about the penalty later. These are our homes.. we need to know something and soon!!  Take people in to the neighborhoods on boats  so that we can  see what we will have to face soon, for God's sake!! It's been almost three weeks, every neighborhood has been filmed over and over again except for my area.  It's time the city shows us what we need to deal with!!

This is not a Sunday that I want to remember, this is far from being a fun or relaxing day for me.. it's just another Sunday, one more day of worrying and another night of not sleeping!! Thanks for reading!! I know it's not pleasant hearing me bitching all the time. I am sorry, but right now.. this is all I can do!!

As Always ~

Trish